I can't believe its been 3 days since I last posted. I'm sorry for that. You may be asking the reason why. I lied. Not just to my family. But to my girlfriend...and more importantly I lied to my best friend. And im sorry for it. What did I lie about? I promised them everything would be ok...well...it won't. I should have listened to my doctor and my parents and Katlee and Kirsten. But I didn't. I ate a whole bunch of junk yesterday and I played football almost all weekend. I also haven't gotten any sleep. I have messed up my stomach again. It's been hurting pretty bad. When it started hurting Friday I promised Katlee and Kirsten it would be fine...then on Saturday morning I promised Ava it would be alright...by Sunday my whole family thought I was ok. Just because I lied about it. I told then I was feeling better. I was really feeling worse. Now its Tuesday morning and I'm thinking about going to talk to my doctor. I've been texting him back and forth but I think I may need to have surgery again. I might...but I might just be put on one of those weird diet thingy where I can only eat like 6 different foods. Sounds fun doesn't it? I shouldn't have lied...I shouldn't have played football all weekend. I shouldn't have gotten into another fight yesterday(long story...tell y'all later) I also shouldn't have had nachos, a bagel, a bowl of cereal and 3 of my frozen yogurt thingies for breakfast. I shouldn't have eaten half a pizza and 3 icecream fudgesicles last night right before bed. I know I messed up. And I'm sorry for it. I might not post for a few day. I'm sorry in advance. I just don't feel good and I might have my abdomen cut open...I don't think its legal when the doctor says "scalpel" for me to also say "keyboard" and then type up a post right then and there...I may be mistaken. Maybe next time I have surgery I will try it. Well I'm gonna go. Thank you guys for understanding. Again I am so sorry for lying to y'all...I didn't want to but it was what felt right...at the time. Now it feels stupid.
-Kish
You didn't want to tell (1) YOUR FAMILY and (2) your best friend because it felt right at the time? Kisher, apparently I'm not helping enough. Btw, I kinda already figured you were lying, I just didn't want to tell you because it felt right. See how weird that sounds? Why didn't you just tell the truth? You could've gotten help a lot sooner. Let me tell you something I recently just read: Trust is like an eraser; it gets smaller with each mistake. I love you best friend, but you're really testing my trust in you. ♥
ReplyDeleteI know I messed up...I feel terrible. I really do. I wish I could just start over and not make all these mistakes. I'm really really sorry. I didn't tell the truth because I didn't want everyone worried. I understand if you hate me...or if you will never trust me again. I get it...
ReplyDeleteKisher, I don't hate you. I could never hate you. Trust, however, will have to be rebuilt. Sure everyone would worry, but isn't worrying about someone you love a way of showing you care? Lies will eventually be found. I should know. I lied a lot to get out of trouble, or homework, when I was your age.
ReplyDeleteWait.... YOU GOT INTO ANOTHER FIGHT?!?!?!
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